Do you ever get those points when you're like, WOW, i know God is good and everything but .... Wow *claps* i didn't know how small my mind was that i couldnt comprehend Him being THIS good! Well if not, that how i am at the moment. Sometimes you just have to realise that things are really hard and you have to ask for help, well things were pretty hard for a while there, which sounds a tad ridicious if you consider all the stuff that happens in the world, how can you say 'going home to live with my family was really hard', boo hoo! Lol but really it was, and still will be, but im feeling good for today at least so im going to rejoice in it.
I think for me to be able to tell this story and still have enough time to straighten my hair and get to the train station im going to have to tell you about my general dialogue with God over the past couple of weeks and how His done miracles.
So last week at around 4.30pm im sitting in Starbucks at Tottenham Court Road (in London) quietly praying, i'm about half hour early for church and feeling really dishearten, i'm surprised i made it to church actually, the prayer is simple, Please God, you know me right?, im way too shy to talk to anybody in there, let one person, just one, come up to me and introduced themself, i know you've got my back so i know you're gonna do this, thank you, amen. Well you have to bare in mind a few things, i went the week before and people were lovely but there wasnt a chance to talk to anybody, there wasnt a turn around and say hi moment, and you couldnt hang around afterwards because they had to get ready for the next service and also more importantly were in England, there are certain rules you abide by in England, you don't talk to random people, they should be introduced to you first, if you're on a train full of people noone will talk to each other, even making eye contact is rude. So what im saying is for me to ask God that might not seem like a biggy to an American but in England i was thinking it was a pretty big task okay? So i go into church, sit down one seat away from a chinese guy (abiding by the one chair rule which says 'never sit next to anyone if you can sit one seat away its rude and will make the person feel uncomfortable') 5 seconds later a woman comes up behind me taps me on the shoulder and introduces herself, no one did that to any of the people sitting around me and there were other people sitting by themselves, sure the lady was on the team there but i didnt ask for a life long buddy i just asked for someone to introduce themself so i wouldnt feel lonely, and God provided, God go! and also go that lady for listening to what He told her to do!
Anyway last week it rained everyday and i had a few things to do like go to the optician and dentist and such, well as you know i now have a huge dentist and opticians bill and another one coming on wednesday, so im laying in bed poking at my new filling with my tongue praying, God why are you giving me so much stuff to pay for when you know i have no money! and im not going to be able to work this week because it hasnt stopped raining!! and i want to be able to tithe at church but i cant!!! give me break!
Well, the next day my boss phones and asks me to work the next two days, which were both beautiful weather and it didnt rain a drop by the way and my mum did a car boot sale and gave me the money they made for my old stuff, so i can pay for my fillings AND tithe next week! (maybe you wont appreciate how big of a deal this is if you havent been to England ... it rains like everyday ....)
Anyway, i have loads more to write but im in a rush so i may have to finish properly later, today im meeting Kayleigh in London, i was really lonely and bored everyday last week and the second i finished talking to God about this and asking why he put me in England if i cant help my friends out because they dont want to know me anymore, Kayleigh texts me and says lets go into London on monday i miss you, i cried, seriously i did and it was embarrassing because i was in the LRC at the time. Well i asked for this so im definately going but as i just told you i can cover my bills and tithe but i have like a fiver apart from that, but its okay because God works miracles and he made Liam give me his Oyster card a few weeks ago with enough money on it for this journey and i looked online to see where the pancake house is and mondays are 'monday madness' .... any pancake is a fiver (these are huge pancakes ... thats a really good deal) and they do a student discount (you probably cant get the two together but you know what i mean) ... This blog doesnt do it justice, i really cant explain how awesome God is, i dont think were supposed to be able to, theres loads more stuff i want to say but im going to leave it there, thanks for reading!
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