Hey there Delilah, what's it like in New York City?

I love Weston. I do not love that i am so far away from him. I feel secure in the fact that he loves me too and that that influences his actions in life. I can see how hard he is working to get things sorted for our married life together, he amazes me really. I was speaking to God about this. I told him how much i love Weston and how my heart dances and i grin when i think of him, how horrendously difficult it is not to be able to be around him but how that makes thinking about the wedding and our lives together so so much more exciting. I was so depressed before, not knowing how or if we would ever get to be together but now i can see the end, we can look forward to it because it WILL happen, there is no doubt in it. I told Him how happy we will be together and how i feel like there is a part of me missing until i'm around him again. He gave me this kind of realisation, like He was saying imagine how it is for me then. I thought about it, God is giving me a very intimate insight into how he feels about being reunited with his people, He is, after all, the bridegroom, preparing the home for the couple, like the preparation Weston is doing at the moment, and all i can do is wait and prepare for what is ahead. Weston and I are only separated by an ocean but the distance and the time we have to wait to be with God for ever? A place of wholeness that you would never want to leave. Not being sure that that is going to happen brings the same depression i experienced, and the knowing? the same elation. My priorities are different now. I know there is no point buying things in England when i wont be here this time next year, why buy household items that i cant take with me? Well thats like God isnt it? Once you know the bigger story you know there is no point putting your efforts into hoarding earthly treasures, when you will be on this earth such a short time, you realise where your priorities really lie. I feel secure in God's love infinitely more than i do Weston's, i know He would (and did) die for me, and like Weston, i love Him so much that i would never want Him to do that for me. The expectation of being with God forever, for developing a deeper level of relationship and intimacy, never having to be apart from Him, I should feel these excited butterflies every second of the day.

I should point out the song at the top of the post, I sing the Plain White Tees song to Weston sometimes, it fits us quite well "they've got planes and trains and cars, and i'd walk to you if i had no other way" and "our friends will all make fun of us but we'll just laugh along because we know that none of them have felt this way"