I'm not sure about this Jesus guy

I was speaking to my friend into the early hours of this morning (I'm exhausted now) about a whole set of random things, after a while God came up, it has before and i hope it will again. She said, she wasnt religious but she felt like there is a God and that she had a relationship with Him but she didnt want to go to church because she felt like when she had gone there before they had just been trying to impose their beliefs on to her and she didnt agree with what they were saying, she felt in a way that the church had pushed her further away from having a relationship with God than it had drawn her into one. I almost cried. Now i have to bear in mind here that she was talking about the churches around her town in Germany, but its not a disimilar story from an English persons perspective. Before we started talking about something else she told me that she was a little bit shocked that i hadnt tried to impose my views on to her and just listened to her views and then gave mine without any agenda, i guess i wasnt surprised that she was shocked but i wish i could have been. The most interesting thing that came up was this, she (and i seem to be hearing this a lot) felt certain there was some kind of God, the concept of 'God' and what His motives were she wasnt really sure about (but then its God - how can we ever even pretend to fully comprehend that stuff?) but she didnt really believe in Jesus. This is interesting if you think about it. We are quite able to believe in a power so much greater than us that CREATED a world, a diety above and beyond our imagination quite by definition, we can easily accept the power and as such the punishment that is associated with such a thing. Yet its so hard to believe in Jesus - who, although God, was around in human form (how is it so hard to believe in a 'human' that actually existed?!) and more so that He was the one who brought the saving bit of the story - His the one that made it all good, that saved us all, to not believe in this part of the story is tradegy itself! Its believing that we deserve to be punished and that we will never be good enough without believeing that there is something done to make the world right at the end of the day, something that saves us from all the rubbishness! I wonder if this is because we dont think we are worthy of the saving part, whether we find it hard to believe because we simply think we actually are too bad to be saved and from that point of view nothing will bring us back. Whats more tragic is that she isnt alone in this viewpoint, its actually quite common, where i am and in this point in time at least. People 'feel' Gods presence and when this happens its impossible to deny that He exists so they hold this concept yet they arent getting the full story ......

Grandfather in Heaven

I've been reading some things by C.S. Lewis, I think i only just understand it, but thats how you learn, he made an interesting point about what we want from God,
When talking about Gods love he suggested that perhaps what we feel we want is love that is more like kindness, a love that wants us to have a good time and doesnt want us to get hurt and would prefer that than to have to teach us lessons that might cause some pain or suffering on our behalf even if its to teach us and model us into what we need to become. We are looking for a Grandfather in Heaven instead of a Father in Heaven, because a Grandfather wants you to have fun and enjoy yourself, but it isnt his job to model you into the person you need to be, he is there for the good times but hands you back at the end of the day, you Father punishes you when you are bad because it will make you better in the long run, He made you and He has a vested interest in making you into a good person, that kind of Love is more than kindness its deeper than that its kindness plus something, maybe its all the types of love put together.