My little miracle

I find it hard to trust God, no thats not true, i would trust Him completely of i knew for sure it was actually Him and not just me hoping things would go a certain way. But im starting to notice the difference when i see it. Heres my little miracle, proof that trusting in God, even when it seems ridiculous, is the best thing to do. Back in September i applied to become a csv, ive blogged about it before so i wont repeat myself, and was offered a placement in Luton, everything about it seemed fine but there was something inside me that was saying i had to turn i down, my head was saying it was a great thing to do and i seemed like a God thing - helping the needy, but something was wrong and although my head said it was just me being nervous of things i knew i wasnt that, i prayed a lot about it and asked God why i was too much of a wuss to go through with it, i asked others what they thought, and in the end i turned it down, expecting not to be offered another placement and not being able to give any reason why i had done so which would sound in the least bit sane, in a christian culture its easier to simply say "God isnt in this" but you sound like a fruit loop saying that here, people want a real reason. Well i did get offered another place and it felt right immediately, i knew i would love it even though the thought scared the hell out of me. This is where i am still, all of these months later, still loving every second, more than most of my friends say about their jobs. There was always this doubt in my mind that i had just chickened out the first time though, that God would have had great plans for me there too. Yesterday my housemates were talking about one of their friends, a csv too, at a placement in Luton, who has had such a hard time of it as are her housemates, she explained the situation and after asking a few confirmatory questions i realised that was my original placement, i realised how miserable i would be right now if i hadnt listened to God and how He always knows whats best for us. This morning (after starting work at 10pm last night im due to finish work at 10 pm this evening, getting only one and a half hours of broken sleep after getting nomes into bed at one and getting us both up for uni a couple of hours later) i walked into nomes' room, she peaked out of the covers with a look that said 'four hours sleep wasnt enough!' and gave me the kind of grin that makes everything worthwhile, i dont believe its possible to be sad when there is a grin this wonderful out there. So trust in Him because that is how great His best can be.