The Bible - a good read!!

I didn't really intend to be on Hilary's laptop at 6.40am on a Monday morning, I intended to be sleeping ...

I've been reading the Bible .... properly reading it, not just reading the verses that comfort me on specific topics, reading it front to back, i gave my life to Christ like a year and a half ago now and im only just getting round to actually reading the Bible ... im a bad person, i know that, but there are a lot of bad people in the Bible (even if im only just now finding out) it seems like God intentionally uses us lot that constantly fall short to do stuff to glorify Himself (i guess because then its obvious its Him, how could it have possibly been this incompetent fool?!) maybe its because everyone falls short so He has no 'great' people to work with so doesnt have a choice? Whatever the case is im glad im a part of it, im realising that God uses me to affect the lives of other people when i do small and seemingly insignificant things that He asks me to do. This shouldnt be a surprise, it happens throughout the Bible (well as far as ive read up to anyway!) The way things go seems to be this - God says 'do this' the people / person says 'but ....' then either do it or dont do it ... good things happen when they do it, so the question is - why do we still question Him? why do we still not / even think of not doing it? surely past experience / other peoples experiences should show us that this is the only way to be doing things? yet i am constantly saying 'umm God im not sure i want to be doing that, i have this other plan ... i think im going to do that instead' first off, this statement struck me as being ridiculous the moment i wrote it down, Im saying to GOD that my plans are better than His ..... that just proves how dumb i am compared to Him. Second off, it seems im not alone, not even just in this generation of people that we recognise are screwing things up at the moment, not even just the last couple of generations, all generations have had doubts, the Bible is pretty much built on people that were totally inadequate (in our eyes at least) people you wouldnt pick in a million years to do that task, people that werent holy, didnt even have to know God at the time of said event happening, didnt have to know a whole lot about Him if they knew anything and when asked to 'go!' reply '.... but ....'. Thats why the Bible is so relevant, even now, God is still asking us to do things for Him glory, and we are still doing bad things and questioning Him, i can relate to these people, i can relate to Moses when he said that he wasnt the best person to be talking to the big boss of Egypt because he stammered and he had doubts over his own abilities, of course he did, God wouldnt have pick Him if he could actually have done that task without Gods help would He!!! That would be pointless, every thing that happens seems to go right back to this point 'its God doing it and people who witness this need to be in no doubt that this is Gods work, not anybody elses'

A couple of other things have stood out to me so far (i only just finished reading Ruth so ill update you with anything new that strikes me as soon as Jesus enters the picture!)
God really cares about every detail of our lives, theres like a whole book with specific instructions of how you should live, not just the ten commandments but a whole ton of other stuff too and then some pretty specific instructions of how these things should be built and how these offerings should be made, it seems like God cares about it all
Like i wrote before - God isnt just using those people who were born into the right family, he uses the foreigners too, everyone can be used it doesnt matter if you grew up in the faith of not and it seems like those 'foreigners' are more willing to do what God says ... they just do it, they dont question as much, which is strange because ... they dont know about God ... yet they know it is Him and they know they should do what He says .... seems like the nonforeigners should know this so much more. Which i reckon is why people accept God when they do see Him, it totally goes against all reasoning to do it but you just have to ... you cant not.
And also God uses the little people to accomplish big things, sometimes i feel like Ruth, ive gone to a new place and taken the God of Israel as my God and im just milling along doing what i do, not thinking that God is using my footsteps in anything His doing. But then you get to the end of the book and it says Ruth had a child and youre like aww good on her and then you look down at the generations that result from this and you think wait ... if it hadnt have been for Ruth then there wouldnt have been a David?? There wouldnt have been all the generations that came from that??? there wouldnt have been all of this future awesomeness that was to come? OH geez! She wasnt just this insignificant person who was just doing what she was doing ... she had a crucial role ... but she was just doing it.

Well im sure i had more things that were whirling about in my head but i need to start writing them down because so many things strike me when im in the moment, so much realisation but i dont always remember it all afterwards - kinda like the people of Israel i guess ... they got told not to build idols and stuff but they didnt remember it ....

Thanks for reading, feedback welcome!