Joy

Just when you get really really down God shows you how great he is to remind you to ALWAYS put your faith in Him.
My facebook status this morning was 'Sophie is feeling really emotional' and now it is 'Sophie is yelling hallelujah, God is SO awesome' What a change of focus, from me to Him. Let me put this in context so you can rejoice with me. This morning i had to phone my placement lady to tell her that i really didnt think i was suited to the placement she had given to me, i had to go through what seemed like extensive reasoning for why i didnt think it was right (the story of the placement is one for another time, the basics though are that there was something that didnt seem God given in it and it made me really emotional and stressed out just reading the profile, id asked a number of people for prayer on the task ahead because i often wonder if these things are just me being a wimp but i really feld like God was not leading me in this direction so i had to phone the lady and let her know - she didnt seem overly happy and it lead to a long painful conversation about my dad and such - eurgh). Well i had asked for the day off of work today to get some things sorted out as im working this weekend and have been working all of the week so far and after finding no solice in music i headed to the town to put my wages in the bank, after almost leaving the town i turned around and walked back to the sweetshop (the only place that sells Reeses peanut butter cups in Enfield), i guess this was because chocolate generally serves the purpose of cheering me up, however God working in peoples lives cheered me up so much more. On the way i saw someone ahead of me grinning like a cheshire cat and waving at me, when i got almost within punching distance i realised it was my cousin Kieran, he looked so healthy and happy - something i havent seen him look like in five years. Kieran started smoking some bad stuff after my dad died back in 2004 he was arrested by the police for selling drugs on to others and narrowly escaped going to a young offenders institution, a couple of months ago he moved out of his mums house and moved into his dads house (his mum and dad split up a little while before and his dad spends around 6 months of the year working on oil rigs off of Scotland so Kiers is left home alone during that time). People have been trying to get him to give up the drugs for a while but its hard to get someone to stick to something they dont actually want to commit to themselves. My cousins when on holiday last week with Kierans dad, spending a week in Cyprus, obviously he couldnt take anything out of the country with him so he has gone cold turkey since then, he told me when he got back his 'friend' gave him 'a special' and he had a really bad trip, he thought he was going to die, his dad (who luckily was there) was ready to rush him to the hospital, this scared the crap out of Kiers. The next day he decided he needed to get away from all of this mess, he went round to his mums house and begged her for forgiveness for all the stuff he'd put her through, we went to see our nan yesterday and God lead us together today. He came back to ours (he asnt been round in a LONG time) and we chatted for hours, he told me how he thinks he needs to get away from his old friends and find a job to keep him distracted because his going cold turkey at the moment, his also going through all the things that he was trying to avoid by taking the drugs in the first place, so so much hurt. I havent seen him thinking this clearly in so long, we were having intellectual discussions again, we talked about life, why certain things happen and whats happening next.

It was so good to have him back, this is going to be so hard to stay with though, he really will need prayer and support to make it through, please pray for him.